QSD
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This sounds like a pretty dark situation and you have my sympathy. One thing to try for is finding some support, it's very hard to deal with emotionally overwhelming problems without any backup. If you don't have anyone, ask your psychiatrist if there are any support groups they might know. There are in fact people around who would be willing to help you, but you need to find them. You can always check back here too but real world support is essential. Good luck.