I am moving into a new townhouse in a few weeks and I guess I'm going to do best to move on, date other people, focus on work and get my life together. I'm hurt by the fact that I have made so many attempts to explain the logic behind why I want to live together for a while before marriage and work on our relationship only to be met by intractable disagreement. I have never walked away from her. She has walked away from me so many times and she thinks just because she has met the very low bar of seeking therapy and going on meds that she is "doing all she can" for our relationship. I have been to therapy myself because I have struggled with anxiety and mild depression for years and I know how long that journey takes. You can't just take pills and go through the motions of therapy and not make any behavioral changes. So I grant that she did take some positive steps but parallel to that she is still continuing her destructive ways: smoking, drinking, not taking care of her health.
GOOD! Closure. Looks like I was right.
Glad to hear that the steps you are or going to take. Now, make sure you delete her number, remove her from Facebook. FORGET THE CHILD for she will brainwash her anyway and you are not the father (sad but true). Focus on yourself. Put everything on yourself. If she calls you DO NOT entertain her and do not feel compelled to tell her how you feel. Don't even look for her to contact you. Your future, your time, you have zero dedication, care, feelings for her. Yes, you will remain scarred and that scar will NOT go away. You sadly would need to live with it and put it away. Over time and meeting better ladies out there, you'll find that the scar of yours will get smaller and smaller and smaller. So get yourself out there. Hang out with the boys. Get girls girls and many more girlfriends "friends", and you'll realise the many things you've been missing out on because of that waste-of-time-woman who took abused you.
Good luck, JB1981. Remember, keep yourself busy, book out your time, do your favourite things, get an outlet, meet many of your friends and get many more girlfriend friends. When you do that, be happy for I'm sure people will be jealous of your insanely positive Facebook highlights., and hopefully, you will find someone that loves you for YOU and don't carry a BS package. No more being pussy whipped, please. haha.