Spent the weekend finishing the move into my new place. My sister-in-law and her cousin helped me rearrange and decorate a lot of stuff. I'm so grateful to them that they were there to help. Sunday was trick or treat day and I spent all day with my little nieces and nephews. This made me miss my ex's child something fierce. I had quite a bit to drink with my brothers and stupidly headed over to her place. I stopped in and tried to speak to her once again about possibly compromising, see if there was something -anything- we could work on together. She looked at me like she didn't even know me. Her eyes were just dead inside. Not even a hint of emotion of affection toward me. I got really upset in that moment and started frigging crying almost uncontrollably. She has given me that dead look before. She seemed so crystal clear about her decision to no longer want anything to do with me that if just hit me like a ton of bricks. The conversation ended with her telling me that I should leave. It was a catastrophe. This relationship was never going to end any other way was it? She said I am sorry but after what you have put me through the last few months with not being sure, I just don't feel the same way about you anymore. We don't want the same things and this whole experience has just ruined everything. It can't be repaired. It's just dead.
I blocked her on FB and defriended her family. I still haven't deleted her # from my phone though. I guess I really am a glutton for punishment
I blocked her on FB and defriended her family. I still haven't deleted her # from my phone though. I guess I really am a glutton for punishment